Dream Diary

I've been trying to read a lot of Blue Lock lately. I love the series, I just tend to read slow (MAR, I'll get back to you...!) (around ~10 chapters a day). Anyway, I just finished reading the first selection, so I'm still behind on where the anime ended. Kuon's arc always makes me kind of sad-- maybe it's his type of character and the fact his hair looks like my girlfriend's. Anyway, seeing that and then reading his trivia section after is so sad... He just seems lonely. I know he's supposed to be a villan, but it just makes me sad for him that he feels so alone... Kuon, I'm hoping by chapter 400, you're super good at soccer and now on like a Brazillian soccer team...! Yeah! Let's go Kuon!!

I think this has effected my dreams. Last night, he was in my dreams. I was in high school-- how most of my dreams are-- and in gym we had to play basketball. I, naturally, sucked at it hardcore and was afraid of getting hit, but my team was still very nice to me. After, I saw him towering over me as we all went to get participation prizes... Which ended up being these long tubes of frozen dough to make pretzels of...? I don't usually care for pretzels... Anyway, the sight of him made me so startled I forgot my frozen dough tube and had to go back for it...

While I'm writing I should say this: I'm very close to done with a first draft of my next game~! June is when I want to announce it officially! I think it's best to flesh out a game before announcing it, something I learned especially with 18782 lol. Anyway, more on that next month.

Maybe it's because of summertime, but I've been feeling incredibly nostalgic for the internet as I knew it as a kid... Not all of it, of course (very hostile place...); but I do wish I could be part of a community... I don't know too much about how to join webrings and make them and such... I wish there was a webring for visual kei fans...! Of course, with lack of messaging, it becomes an issue... There's Discords, but I usually feel awkward talking in those if I don't know anyone... I've been trying this month to become more social.

I don't know how to end this off. I've been sick for a while, nothing killer, but it's nice to feel good again. I love the warmth of the sun anymore... It's beautiful! Life can be so beautiful!!!

2:34pm ... 5.22.2024